skeptical

I don't really know what's happening with my life neither other people's. But much to my surprise others are busy buzzing about MY LIFE. I could honestly say that I am not a social person. Actually I stayed home for three straight weeks without going out of our front door (That's my record so far, some are like five days to a week.) YES! I don't have a life. I am earnestly asking for it actually. But why are so many people trying to make a buzz about my lifeless LIFE? PLEASE for pete's sake just LEAVE ME ALONE! (Not you reading this, i mean them-- you know, THEM) *sigh*

My heart wants to burst. It needs air. Oxygen. Hydrogen. Nitrogen. Whatever. I should keep myself sane. Though "SANE" is not my normal state of mind. Yes, maybe I'm crazy - or not? I need someone. I have three brothers, but they chose to leave me. so I need a man that will be a brother to me. I don't want anyone who has hidden desire for me. PLEASE NO! (You may say that I'm not being modest but trust me, I just need a friend!)