change

Could I really be settling for something less than I deserve? -maybe.
Sometimes I think of doing the right thing next time. People reprimanded me for being so weak. Not that I intentionally want to be one. But sometimes your heart says, "let go". I tried to shut a word. Then two. Three. Until it became a habit. As it came to me, people around me noticed my irrevocable change. Change is inevitable. I just thought. But since this change I just didn't see myself differently but I even see life in a most uncertain and dysfunctional way. And as I browse through my life's book, I can't conclude anything but.. YES, I changed for something even worst can't define.