Why? Where?

So here it goes;

Unluckily my fate took a hard fall as it turned 180 degrees and slipped through a profound cliff.
Unluckily for me, I have to deal with it.
And because of that aching fall, I became bitter.
Bitter with everything. Questioned God. Honestly, I still question him everyday.

At first, I tried keeping up with it. Made shallow decisions. It was practical for some time. Not later though.

Problems are endless. Yet our lives, NOT.

I don't exactly know how to deal with it. Neither family nor friends made me feel comfortable talking about it. So then again, my impulsive resolution - SHUT THE HELL UP.

Needless to say, 2009 was some freakin' hell for me. 2010 doesn't really sound different at all. For some time. I think.

I detached myself to people. Well, unfortunately, to those people that matters the world to me. At first, it was a decision. And just then (came unnoticed), it became a habit.

My heart aches. I know. And as all people know, I don't talk about it with anyone.
But the thing is, I don't even talk about it with my heart, with myself. I dare not asked why it hurts. What's wrong. Why all these shits happen to me. For the love of heavens, I always questioned, "WHY"?

Up until now, I haven't written anything. I haven't even inquired my heart if I'm already okay. My fingers just tend to typed anything. Maybe it became my heart, somehow.

Just to make things better, I always remind myself that "This too shall pass".

I'm still not okay, I know. Well, better. I don't really know what to say anymore.

*sigh*

SHOUTOUT TO MY HATERS: I don't really have the strength to reply on your painful judgments nor do I really care for the moment. But I guess you should be happy, It stings.